New Years Resolution....

Mm tomorrow's new years eve, can't believe '09 is here. Goddamn >.<
Alright, my new years resolution is...get in shape and stop playing so much games.










i really kinda doubt i can do that.

I'm so glad I went out for once.

Finally, a break from staying home everyday and facing the family.
I should do this more often. Maybe I will finish up whatever and get my permit, need to grow up and be man and stop being dependent on others. Yeah, nothing to do. I'm so bored, I'm looking forward to new years eve. Heheh, if everything works out right, it's going to be a fun night. But yeah, I guess I'll go play my guitar hero and be my loser self.

Today's Christmas?

Hmm, doesn't feel like it. It's like any other normal day, stay up hella fucking late for no reason. A lot has happened in the past few days, don't feel like talking about it. I want to get away from my family for a while, a take a break. Go to SF and get some cheesecake. Go shopping. Hang out with friends. Need some time away. After tomorrow, think I'll get the chance to do so. Yeup, off to bed.

First day of winterbreak...

What the fuck, they're playing maplestory.
Fuck. Games. Let's photoshop hehe ;D
Uh yeah, nutin to doo mann. Think Imma play mah itouch :P

Guess what guys ?!

One more day before Christmas break ! OHMAHGAWD. Lol, azzle/sofa/blankie talk. Rofl.
Mm, I'm excited. I think I'm getting more comfortable with socializing now...better, but still shy a lot of times, heheh. Wonder what's going to happen this winterbreak, i haven't really done anything with my friends during the past winterbreaks. Hopefully we'll go on a trip to snowboarding ourselves. Not sure how we're going to get there, I'm thinking having friends drive but it seems really dangerous. I guess the best thing would be to fly to tahoe and yeah ;D Alright, tomorrow is the last day before break, going to make the best out of it.

A new trend?

Yes. Webcamming. Come join our online orgys. IM me for info ;D

HAHAHAH !

I can't believe, he popped a hard one on her. LMFAO. Damn, you need to calm down and learn to control your baby foo, rofl. So...today. Hm, nothing happened. Spent some "quality time"(quoted from insun) with the loser. Yeah, now I'm home. Bored. Think I'll be a goodboy and do my homework. OH YEAH! Only 1 more week before Christmas Break, that's so fast. I can't believe it. I sort of don't want it to be break because I never feel like doing any school related things during break, and then when we get back I slack off like hell. And I slack off the week before >.< Hopefully I won't, cause I got finals after we come back from break. Heheh. Alright, time to do my homework, tokbox, photoshop, and maybe finish my drivers ed?






NAH :]

Is she...

mad at me? I can't tell, she just keeps avoiding me. No way in hell that it so happens she needs to go do something every time I sit down next to her.





WHAT DID I DO WRONG.

Heheh.

AHEM. That was a fun experience x]]

Mmhmm....

I'm sorry Gretta, I didn't mean to make you mad today. Forgive me. I felt like a big ass loser making this video, but it's worth it as long as you're not mad at me anymore. Heheh xD

Alright, time to go shopping today. I have most of the things I need, just going to go buy a dress shirt and a tie. Maybe a blazer, the one I have is a bit too small, but I don't know. I need to save money. Winterball here I come, bitch. >:P

It's school tomorrow.

And you know what that means? Lots and lots of work to catch up on, I mean projects. I haven't done any of them. I think most of them are due this week. Ah, I'm so screwed. Right now grandma's in hospital, not sure what's going on. But doctor says she's very weak and could go away any day. I don't feel like I'm going to break down or anything, but when I see my grandpa I sort of want to. He looks so sad and desperate to do something to help her survival, but in order to do that it'll be painful. Grandpa keeps saying to just let her rest and live the rest of whatever her life is peacefully instead of making it hurt more. I agree, but I want to do whatever it cans to help her chance of survival higher. I don't know, I don't want to see them too much cause it's so sad. Every time I look at grandpa his eyes are red and they look so tired, it's like he's been up all night thinking about things. Life is so unfair. We live life to suffer and have fun but in the end we suffer, we lose everyone we know and love. It's so frustrating. I always think about how it would be like to lose someone close, and now it's getting closer. Bleh, I need to stop thinking so much. That's like one of the reasons why I don't like to sleep too early because I'm not tired. I'll just lay in bed and think about things. I like to warn myself out so I can sleep right away, but I know it's bad for me. So I guess I'll just have to go to bed now. See what I can do. Nights.



ascension. 5 - 3 - 0
it's okay guys, we'll get our dispute.

7 hours...

Just woke up. Feeling kind of wooozy. Heheh. Haven't done this in so long. I feel hecka screwed up right now, neck is sore, stomach is growling, eyes are tired, a little headache, shiet. Alright, time to figure out what to do the rest of the day.


peace out.

Black Friday.

Damn, so tired. Don't want to say much. Went to GreatMall at 12am. Spent 3 hours at PacSun. Everything was 50% off. Went to Frys. Got nothing. Somehow we managed to get in to Frys. I don't know how, but Jason's mom is amazing. She told us to go in and we did. It was crazy. We were fucking VIP fools! Lol. kk. Time to sleep. Get some rest. Hella tired.



good morning.

Shithead.

Were we too fucked up? I don't know, I thought it was funny. He needs to suck it up. All we did was pull a little joke on him. We even told him we're sorry and who it was, come on. He's such a kid. I thought friends forgive and forget easily for little things like this. Oh wells.
Mm, tonight going to dad's friend's place for thanksgiving dinner. Freaking in Milbrae, so far away.
Atleast i have my laptop, woot. Then yeah... don't feel like talking about other stuff.



pzl8-

Monotonous...

that's a big word.
I'm hella bored. I CSed all day and now I'm like dead.
There's nothing to do. I don't feel like doing my drivers ed. Don't feel like doing my homework. Don't feel like doing anything...


i want to go out.


Oh, and I got my Ipodtouch case. FINALLY.
Now I just have to wait on my iTunes gift card to be emailed.

I told her...

sorta, heheh. wrote a note, i tried. never had the courage to tell her in person. im such a loser.

So! Thanksgiving break is about to start, and I don't have any plans yet, lame. Well, I have one: go to black friday and get me some cheap ass stuff. hehe :D Maybe it's just me but there seems to be nothing for me to do. Every school day I go home and do my homework and i just waste the rest of my day checking everyone's myspace or facebook or taking stupid quizzes or switching songs every 1 minute or I'm just laying there staring at the walls. It's such a waste of time. Maybe I need a hobby, a "good" hobby. I think I spelled hobby wrong. Oh wells. Ipod Touch... did I really need it? I don't know, I already bought it. So far I'm having fun with it, just need to get some more applications for it. Mmm, I got work tomorrow. I'm really bored. Someday someone's going to read my blog, and think I'm some depressed / emo kid. Hahah. Maybe. Maybe not. O.O
What. To. Do. Nothing? I guess I'll just go to sleep. No. Everytime I try to go to sleep but I'm not tired, I start to think about depressing stuff. Especially right now when my grandma's in the hospital and all. I hate it. I really do. That's why I'm going to continue looking up random stuff on google and play some CounterStrike. I'm a big dumbass, I know. I wish i could take naps like otehr people, if only I could do that :P

From the Inside - Linkin Park

Recently had my brother download new songs. Well, no. I went to work and he came back and i found new songs on my itunes and put them on my ipod touch. Hahah. Yes, i got an ipodtouch 2g. It's alright, I really got it just for the apps. Man i was so excited about jailbreaking it, but apparently you can't jailbreak it yet. Stupid Apple, always ruining people's fun. But according to the forums, this "team" will be able to in about a month or so. I wanna jailbreak. But yeah, school's alright, i this week left before thanksgiving break. WootWoot. Winterball is coming up, but I'm not ready. She hasn't gotten her clearance pass yet so I have to wait. Didn't even want to go, but I guess it wouldn't hurt to go have fun. I'll see.


i freaking want to tell her...

forealz though...

fuck. homecoming parade and assembly today was hella fun. it was fucking hot though. but still fun.
untill my dad decided to not let me stay over at aaron's house and told me to fucking come home, ASD;FKLJ. whatever, ruined my day. gonna go sleep.




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Drained.

I feel stupid. Last night i was playing games till 10, then all of a sudden i remembered i had an essay due today. Man, how could i forget. Wasted 3 hours doing it while i could've slept, I told myself I'd stay focused this year but so far I haven't been. I'm pissed at myself. Yes i was tired at school today, and yes i am depressed. We just found out my grandma has some kind of cancer, and they're going to check today to see what the conditions are and if they can operate on it. If it has spread alot then she only has about half a year to live. Hopefully it hasn't, then they'll operate on it and take that shit out. I don't know what to do, or how i should feel. I'm worried for her and my mom but then i want to be happy while we still can and hope everything's alright. I thought about what it would be like, for me and my grandpa. I don't want to see him sad for the rest of his life, but i know eventually they'll all go away. We will all go away >.<

Well this week is homecoming. Never really liked it, but i guess it's alright. Friends are doing male skit, couple are doing song girls / float, don't know where everyone else is. Heh, hope this week goes by fast. I dont' really have school spirit.

NAKED.

ALRIGHT, i cut hair.
OH EM GEE.

it's so short, i look like a kid.
BUT IT'S OKAY.
going paintballing this weekend so that makes up for it x]]

doing well ? maybe.

mkay, i just got my summer homework back for APES and i got a 30 1/2 out of 40 on it. im guessing that's around a C-ish. NOT BAD FOOS. but yeah, i think i need to try harder, i never feel like it though. it pisses me off.



bitch, i can do it.

BowChikaBowWow

http://s306.photobucket.com/albums/nn263/PokeEyeX/stuff/?action=view&current=desktop3.jpg

yeah, i was bored :O

that was fast.

one week of school went by, really fast. i thought it was going to be hella boring, but it wasn't too bad. USH is alright, batchelor's pretty chill. but we did get an essay already, that kind of sucks. graphic design with tyler in sutton's class is fun, good stuff. APES. i have 4 days to do my summer homework, what a loser. mmm, Adv. Topic Math is also chill, pretty easy. i have chill classes this year, so far :D and uh, American Lit and spansih is alright. nothing happening really.

still trying to stay focus and not play games, not going too well.
i'll try harder.

Last day...today.

Just spent my last day of summer sitting at home, having the worst day of summer ever. My head freaking hurts like a bitch so i just slept the whole day. Then my room gets hotter and my head's hurting and im like dying. So i start playing CS and everything's all better. Lawl xD






quitting's for losers.

AWH SHIIIET.

alright, i have 4 more days left.
what the hell do i do with it.
bbq / sleepover / allnighter tomorrow till saturday.
then yeah, have my fun these couple of days, then it's time for seriousness >:[



WISH ME LUCK IN HIGHSCHOOL.

1 week

left to have fun.
2 up coming events...
registration and probably Tropic Thunder.
aaron's party, woo.

after that, it's time for school.


I CAN DO THIS.

fail.

i dont know what to do.
so much confusion.
all i want to do is have fun.
but i know i can't.
got to get ready for college.
this is my future >:[

Simple Plan - Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

tired.

work is a pain in the ass x[
i don't why i work. what's the point. it's so boring. i have to fake a smile the whole day. stupidass customers, what's a latte with less milk and more foam? A CAPPUCCINO FOO! god. some dude came in and i told him it was called a CAPPUCCINO, and he kept telling me it's called a DRY LATTE. man. ads;lfkj. luckily after that everything was smooth. i was so glad the next 2 hours went by quickly.

well, got home. had some hellla yummy food.
dont know what to call it in english. but but, it was uh. some kind of chicken and pork my dad made. he makes good food :DD

so we were 10 man-ing on counter strike. it was uh... yeah, point is, aaron and henry was on the other team, we needed one more win to win the game. we were t-sided, and we had the bomb planted at B. i was half flashed, under window, and ran out around the double green box and fucking clutched it with a glock. 7hp left :O too bad no one recorded. it was freaking hax. hey jasonn, if you ever read this, DAMN YOU ! should've recorded :[ oh, then that phelps dude clutched the 100m dash, or whatever dash it was. shit it was crazy xD

bleh, 2 more weeks till school. don't know how i should feel right now, im kind of excited, kind of not. going to miss the TIC people. and all the fun gaming nights i have with my vent crew. asdf.


-sleep-

alright...

let's see...


::summary of the trip to westfield mall today ::

Took bart there, get to powell st. at 1:00. didn't know where to go...so i just started walking. and then i met alina, and called Kai. we met up. then alex was there ! alexhong. Lol, didn't know he was coming, but it was fun. best camera man ever. walked...around alot. no one really bought anything. spent quite awhile at American Eagle. me and kai finally bought something. then there's this one asian security there, shit he was creepy. he walked up to tif while she was seeing how the skirt looks on her, and he hella checks her out. and then the scanner thing started beeping and he turns hella fast and walks to the door. what a perv. so, yeah. we bought something. a got a tshirt. only 17.90 ! woot. mm, walked around morrre. went to victoria secret. woo, smells as good as awalys :D that victoria secret was pretty big too. eh, i bad memory... mmmm. oh then we went to a&f and hollister. me and tif got some clothes at hollister. infact, no one bought anything except me, kai, tif and alina. oh and tiff bought a purple sweater at forever 21 :O oh then we ate lunch. mm, that burger was goood. so were the fries. yumm. then i bought some stuff at pacsun. got 2 pairs of jeans and a bottle of cologne. mmm ;D dont remember what happened inbetween. oh yeah, tif's flipflops broke. loser. then kai left. too early man. :[ cause uh, after i got my jeans followed tiffs outside, didn't know where they were going... ended up in uhh. forgot what's it called, but it's like a Make-Up shop. i had no idea. walked out with make-up all over me. i got...most of it off :P ehh yeah. we met up at uh...bloomingdales, and chilled there for awhile. then tif yiyi and alina had to leave :[ so, me alex chungster and tiff went to go get some yummyass fried calamarie. woo. should've gotten a second order xD but yeah, after that we went home. freaking, while we were on bart, some dude was tapping some blackguy's seat, and the black guy told him to stop kicking it. so the white guy with the dog moved behind us, and he was like "calm down man. calm down". then the black guy got up and he was like WHAT YOU SAY. WHAT THE FUCK YOU SAY. YOU WANNA GET OUT THERE RIGHT FUCKING NOW. shit. i thought he was going to beat his ass. all that white guy said was YOU WANNA GO TO JAIL? chungster was scared, kept leaning towards me lawls -__- yeah. im home now. going to the mall wasn't that bad, it was actually pretty fun. except no one really bought anything. i bought the most, and i carried the bags >:P



^^ checkout that womannaquin. or however you spell it ;D

hmm, my friend is doing a prankcalling. and yeah.
too much has happend, don't remember what he said during those prankcalls. xD
woo. time to go sleep.
got work tomorrow. how lame.

woot.

banner done.
look pretty good. i like it xD

now i just gotta change the colors and yeah...
give it some time :P


alright. time to go shower and get ready to go shopping with the tiffs and kai at VS :O

damn...

that was some good ass opening for the olympics xD
i didn't expect of any those things to happen. its was pretty amazing. woo go china.
everything was all good, except at the end. that guy took forever man, he was jackie-chan-ing across the whole stadium. faster please.

hmm, trying to make a new banner.
can't decide what colors to use either...
lame lame. i guess i'll take my time.
the more i practice the better i get :DD

asdf

adsf.


bored bored bored.


http://wen-jr.deviantart.com/art/On-the-Road-Again-90039465


^^that is amazing.
give me a few more years and maybe i'll get close to that xD

WeewooWeewooWeewoo

Dudes, ping pong and the movie Wanted is related :O
they stole the curving bullets thing from pingpong and the curving balls >=[

Mummy was sooo cheesy. Forgot to post about that :P It was pretty funny though...
Life is sooo boring. My mom's worried that i won't pass highschool and get into a good college. WTF. i'm trying my best... i want good teachers this year. oh shit, didn't do my APES homework yet.
Lawls. Hopefully i'll do better this year...it's my last year to improve before i apply to colleges. maybe imma just go to community college :DD


Currently Playing : http://ww.v3n0ms-gaming.com/mscp/index1.html

uh oh, spaghetti-oh.

There's only liiike, 3 weeks left until school. How lame is that ?! Mom's being bitching me about school and annoying the hell out of me about how others are doing so well and how they got their fucking majors and degrees and shit. It's not my fault i fail at school >:[
Hopefully i'll do better this year...

Mmkay, off to pick up my packets for registration.
I actually can't wait for college, sounds so much better than highschool xD

huh...

OhEmGee.
first blog woot :O


ATDP is gooone, until next year.
i really miss it, i have nothing to do right now :[

WHERE IS EVERYONE !



...dude, it's hot.