forealz though...

fuck. homecoming parade and assembly today was hella fun. it was fucking hot though. but still fun.
untill my dad decided to not let me stay over at aaron's house and told me to fucking come home, ASD;FKLJ. whatever, ruined my day. gonna go sleep.




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Drained.

I feel stupid. Last night i was playing games till 10, then all of a sudden i remembered i had an essay due today. Man, how could i forget. Wasted 3 hours doing it while i could've slept, I told myself I'd stay focused this year but so far I haven't been. I'm pissed at myself. Yes i was tired at school today, and yes i am depressed. We just found out my grandma has some kind of cancer, and they're going to check today to see what the conditions are and if they can operate on it. If it has spread alot then she only has about half a year to live. Hopefully it hasn't, then they'll operate on it and take that shit out. I don't know what to do, or how i should feel. I'm worried for her and my mom but then i want to be happy while we still can and hope everything's alright. I thought about what it would be like, for me and my grandpa. I don't want to see him sad for the rest of his life, but i know eventually they'll all go away. We will all go away >.<

Well this week is homecoming. Never really liked it, but i guess it's alright. Friends are doing male skit, couple are doing song girls / float, don't know where everyone else is. Heh, hope this week goes by fast. I dont' really have school spirit.