i'm confused.

this is hard.

I'm trying to talk things out, but you don't even want to talk to me.
You can't always be right, can't you just listen to me, or at least take a minute or two, or maybe a day or two to think about things and think more broad?
I love you and I just don't want you to be like this forever.

Hehe, crazy night. Now it's time to go to sleep with my babybear s2(:

i dont know, what to do...











...but think about you.

respect man, respect.

iloveyou baby(:

I can't even last a day without fucking up, I don't deserve you and you don't deserve this.

I wish I knew what to do, I'm hopeless.

Heh, we won. Time to sleep(:

Sooo tiredd :X

I really wish I did something right.

iloveyou.

I haven't done anything right.

I wish I just died right now, so I'll seem like I never existed.

I can't do everything.

I"m happy today, again :]

i'm happy right now :]

i can do it.

I'm tired.

fml. fuck my parents. i hate life.

i do love you.

Heh, it's been a week of school, almost 2 weeks.
I guess senior year won't be as bad, it's pretty easy this year.
I just gotta keep working and not slack off.
ICANDOIT.
Still coughing, it's getting better.
Hope I'll get well soon, it sucks being sick.

And I'm sorry, I didn't keep my promise. I messed up and I know I can't fix it, but it won't happen again, I promise. I'll do anything to make it up to ya, even treating you to sushi house.

Fucking shit. I really, really, wish I can just put most of my time onto school and concentrate on education, cause after these next years, if I do well and get a good job, I'm set for the rest of my life. But I don't want to fucking miss out on all the fun things, I just really don't want to. I fucking hate life. FUCK A FUCKING DUCK. I had everything planned out before fucking white ass piece of trash Mr. Fuck a Duck Bush decided to fuck up the economy. I had my shit planned out, but noo he had to stick his white ass dick in my plans and fuck things up. Fuck a shit hole.

First day of senior year, so far so good.

One more day left.
Fuck a duck.

The shit...it's hella hot.

I'm sooo sorry, I fucked up. It's my fault.

I'm back baby.
And I'm still sweating ballsack over here :X

Time to fly biatch.

im gonna miss you love :(

I don't know what to do anymore, I always screw up and make things worse. I just, don't know what to do. Maybe I'll just shut the fuck up.

Today was my first time dying my mom's hair, and I ruined her jeans :3

One more week left :[

01.20.09

s2(:

Heheh, today I took my day off [=

I feel great :]

I'm trying, I really am. I just, never do the right thing. And I hate it.

I'm fucking up -____-"

I'm tired...

girl, i'll make you fireworks~

Meh...

It's hot.

Missed a week of work out, I'm tired.
I'll start again tomorrow :D










....maybe the day after....

Tomorrow is the day it starts.

What a night...
















i still never do anything right, fuck me.

Heh, first week of summer just went by.
I miss you already :[

We should just see each other as much as we can instead of thinking about how it's going to be sad after we see each other and then we don't see each other for like another week or two. I really want to see you, let's go watch a movie.

Well, what to do. Nothing really. I might head back to China after summer school ends, but I don't really want to. I want to spend time with Annabelle and hang out with my friends. I don't know, I probably have to, my grandpa's not feeling so well. Heh. Hopefully I'll come back early and spend a week or two with my friends and then Aaron's birthday. Haha, can't miss that :D

Alright, just got my haircut, after like a month and a half, lol.
I feel funny, haha.

LALALALALALA :D

iloveyou annabelle (:

Holy shit... last day of school.
What a year, brother's graduation tomorrow and senior graduation and then cousin's graduation on Friday. So busy. I don't have time to spend with Annabelle till next week, I'm sad ):









i'm going to miss you alot princess...iloveyou(:

Finals start tomorrow. Shit. Time to study.











i miss you annabelle ):

On Friday, I went to 24fitness with Jason, Brian, and Harvey. Stayed there for about 2 hours. Went to Fresh Choice afterwards. I felt great. Too bad I was already feeling sick that day, I would've felt better but NOPE :[
Woke up at 10 yesterday, left at 2 to reinier's. ate. played games. ate some more. went to stanton. watched them play ball. went to the playground and played lava monster... LOL. that was the best shit ever. then got called off by the cops and we had to go home. played some more games. bbq outside at night. went home. talked to belle. slept. work :3

I. Had. A. Great. Day.

School is almost over... I don't know if I should be excited or not.

i can't... think straight.

i can't do my essay when there's so many things going through my mind.

what is love...without trust.

Blood Drive.

So, yesterday was the blood drive. I left in the beginning of 4th period and went back to class in the last 30minutes of 7th period. Hahah, what a great waste of time. Hehe. It was so weird when they took the blood out of me, they would put back the plasma with a little cold salt water into me and it felt hella weird cause it was cold and I could feel the liquid going in me. I almost fell asleep cause the bed thing was so comfortable, but then the dude woke me up cause I had to squeeze the ball to like keep the pressure going or some shit. Lol, good experience.

But yeah, I'm tired. Got to do my projects >.<

TRO - Deviation

Deviation was...alright, lol.
I miss you.
Went to chipotle, get a steak bowl with extra sour cream and cheese and rice.
I missed you there too.
Went to daniel's and watched slumdog and missed you even more after you fell asleep :3

At daniels...
Peter, out of nowhere, brings out a bag of hot cheetos and we're all "what the fuck are you doing? are you opening up a brand new bag of hotcheetoos?!" and peter is all "yeah, im hungry." and we all started cracking up and convinced him not to open it. he goes inside, 2 minutes later, comes out eating cookies he found. peter is a manaic when it comes to food LOL.

goodnight.

don't know what to do...but to keep missing you.

confused.

"Nobody really cares if you’re miserable, so you might as well be happy."

I miss you.

Three Words.

NS and Friends.











it's hottt~

It's up.

DADA Website.
click me ^^

I'm tired.

Mm, so I started doing my homework at 6.
I haven't got shit done though.

Homework Left: Spanish workbook, US History protest poster, Math project, English paragraphs for The Great Gatsby, APES homework, and DADA website


Meh, I guess I'll be up tonight.
My dad told me to drink soda so I can stay up, I took his advice.

If you love somebody, set them free. If they return, they were always yours. If they don’t, they never were.

HAHAHAH.

HAHAHAH MADE MAH DAY ;D

You're a dumbass.

I'm tired. Fuck. I never do anything right. You're such a dumbass Andy.

=[

Justkidding. 2 hours of sleep. Need to wake up and shower.

Heh, still be working.

Man I'm still up, working on my homework.
Fuck Me, 4 hours of sleep.
I'm going to be hella tired tomorrow, heh. Oh well f3.

Day 1 of May.

It rains. What the fuck. I thought it's suppose to get sunny and warm. But no the sky fucking starts pouring down on us. Yeup, I have three days to put together this shit. I can do it :3

10PostsforApril :3

Okay, my boss calls me today and tells me i have to fill in for July too. Now i have to work every Monday - Friday plus Sundays from June - July. FUCK. My summer is going to suck.



im not going to have time to spend with you :(

If you love somebody, set them free. If they return, they were always yours. If they don’t, they never were.

I can’t force you to love me, but I can’t force myself to stop loving you.

Currently...

- being a fatty
- listening to music
- chatting
- working on DADA website
- not studying for SAT
- not preparing for SAT
- not doing anything related to SAT





i need to prepare for my SAT and not get a lower score.

Life is a pain in the ass.

I never seem to do anything right.

Today is such a beautiful day.

Except I fucking hate it cause it's so hot and I just got back from work and my back is all sweaty and my arms are wet and I'm smelly. Still need to do my homework. I'll do it later. After I shower and cool down first. But yeah I'm tired, going to go pick up my brothah.





this weather is perfect.

First day in Seattle, Washington.

1) woke up at 4:30.
2) left at 5 to sf airport.
3) got lost for 30 minutes and finally found the virgin america airline.
4) got on the plane at 7.
5) played fallout 3 for 2 hours.
6) arrived in seattle at 9.
7) rented our car.
8) ate tacobell.
9) went to places.
10) went to the inn.
- it's fucking amazing. 1 bed room. 1 masterbedroom. 2 bathrooms. 1 full kitchen. 3 plasma tvs. free wifi. free use of printer downstairs with 3 desktops available and 4 xbox 360s down in the play room. i dont know but i fucking love this place cause we dont have to pay for it :D
11) um, im gonna stay up all night :D
12) miss annabelle.
13) miss annabelle some more.
14) miss annabelle even more.
15) missing annabelle with a huge amount of missing.

i miss you annabelle :(

Future.

I always hated thinking about the future, and how I'm going to prepare for it. But I figured I had to think about it soon cause Senior year is next year and college is right after that. I really hate thinking about it, college means leaving my friends and everything we did in highschool and middlecschool. It's going to suck. I guess I have to step up to it and just deal with it. I need to start planning on what colleges to apply to and everything else that I don't know yet that I need to do to prepare for college. But at the same time I just want to have fun and continue having fun the rest of my Highschool, I think I'll do that after I settle the "college stuff". Well, time for dinner. I have lobster and crab, mhmmm fucking yummy.

And to all my friends out there right now, I'm going to miss you guys.

Junior Prom was the shit...

even though I didn't go. Teehee. Hahah. Dude, it was just fun. I'm too lazy and it's too hot for me to describe every detail that happened. But it was fun. We're going to get fucked up again during spring break :D

TeeHee

I'm excited [=

I hate allergies :[

What to do... I'm bored. I sat here for 10 minute staring at my computer. Heh. I'm suppose to be doing my homework but I'm just thinking about things. Life sucks. I hate how everything we do now is just going to disappear when we die, that's homo. All I want to do now is have fun, but then I can't have too much fun cause then I'd get sidetracked from school and then I'd do bad =\
Maybe I'll try to do both. Teehee.

ISA

Okay I don't feel like going in debt about what happened yesterday.
Basically we went to SF for ISA and then we had to find a taxi to get to bart and barted home and got home at like 1:30. Then I only had 2 hours of sleep and woke up at 4:30 and then did some stuff and then came home and slept till now. Rofl.

WOOHOO!

EVGA 512-P3-N866-TR GeForce 9600 GT Superclocked Edition 512MB 256-bit

now for some HD pr0n ;D

I love you Annabelle (:

You're a piece of shit Andy, nice going fucker.

i fucking hate people who gives me:

"o.O" or "-_-" or "..." or "??" or "O_o"

WTF LEARN TO SAY SOMETHING PEOPLE.

I feell asleep...

while doing math homework. what the hell. i hate taking naps cause i feel like crap when i wake up. dammit. i still have an essay to do. shiiiet.

I'm a dumb fucking piece of shit. You're worthless.

Emergency.

It's so hard making decisions. Go to Junior Prom? I want to go, for the experience. But then I don't want to go, cause I'm... too lazy, need to save money, don't know if I'm going to have fun, don't feel like it, and I'm sure there's other reasons. But then everyone else is making me go. Why can't people just give me suggestions instead of just telling me what to do. Fuckers. Humans are a piece of shit. I wish all the bad people can get fucked up like the Japanese does to criminals and people who are baddies.

Yeup...I love you Annabelle (:

Oh so like, maybe instead of Junior Prom, me and you can go out somewhere else and stay at your place. We can keep warm and cuddle and watch scary movies or mess around with Panda ;D Hahah. Yeah, I don't know. I kind of want to just go to Junior Prom, just cause it's once in a life time. But if I get to spend my time with you doing something else, I'm fine with that (:

So yeah, the "emergency".... My brother was skateboarding outside and then he fell on his elbow. Then my dad takes him to Kaiser and shit and they wait 4 hours before they go x-ray my brother's elbow. They find out that it's slightly fractured and his bone is slightly dislocated. Now they have to do surgery because that's the only way to slowly put his bone back into place and fix up his fractured bones. Dumbass, told him not to lean so forward while he skates down hill. Oh well, it'll be an experience for him.

People say blogging is stupid, I don't give a fuck. I want let out my thoughts so when I look bad I can laugh at myself till I'm old and before I die I'll make sure my grandchildren remembers my blogs and shit and it'll be passed down. Yeah, that's what I'll do.

So anyways, I don't know why the hell I'm writing so much, but I'm going to go do my homework now. Actually I'm cold and I want to cuddle with my looove. Teehee (:

iloveyou annabelleee

Driving isn't too bad.

Teehee. Got my permit. Finished my 6 hours of driver's training. Now I can drive around. It's not too bad. I think it's pretty easy. Let's just hope Gretta Noe won't be on the road when I'm driving :P

What...

a freaking day.

Heh. GG.

GG.

What the hell...

Lately, I've been thinking about one thing... and I want to stop thinking about it.







-life is fucking short

Woot.

Permit Test - Pass.



mmm annabelle [=

FUCK INDIAN PEOPLE.

I left to go get some money, and I come back in like 2 minutes and she tells me I have to wait in line again. But it was already 4:30 so I ask her if I can take it since I just needed to bring the money. And she goes "It's pass 4:30, come back tomorrow." I was thinking about it, but then i saw the sign that says You Can't Threaten State Employees so I turn around and tell everyone what a bitch she is.


FUCK INDIAN PEOPLE.

Hii.

i love you annabelle (:

YAY.

IT'S COMING IT'S COMING :D

Ehh, yeah. What a day.
Feeling a kind of sick, but that's okay. Some sleep will help.
Don't know man. Fuck. Whatever.
I had the best valentine so it doesn't matter (:

Woo...

I feel happy.
Thankyou insoon.
And no I won't be your gay bff =P

I'm stupid.

So, after school I had to go do something and like I didn't think it would take me that long. My dad was waiting for me outside, and 45 minutes went by and I didn't even know, then he calls me and yells at why I'm taking so long, and I tell him I'm sorry and I said he can go home first. Then he starts saying I'm only taking so long cause I want to hang out with my friends. I was so fucking pissed, I mean i guess i see why he thought that, but fuck. I'm so mad he didn't believe me cause I was really working on something. But whatever, I walked to Taco Bell alone, and I was about to walk home but my dad insisted that he should come pick me up. So yeah, I'm home, they're going out to dinner, time to take advantage ;D

Today is...

freaking cold. I'm still doing my homework, how lame. And I got my letter of truancy, goodjob andy. I don't think I'll be cutting anymore, maybe. Nah hope not =|

Must start...

working. It's a new semester, and I already began slacking off. I don't know why. I just don't feel like doing anything. All I want to do, is have fun. But then on the other side I want to do something uhm, productive? I don't know, just something that will get me somewhere. Games will not get me anywhere, for sure. It's just one of those days, one of those days I don't know what the fuck to do and all I want to do is sleep. Maybe that is what I'll do...

What a day...

Yeup, what a day ;)

My Story.

So me and my mom had a little talk...

Me: so mom, i might be busy on valentines day. or that whole weekend.
Mom: why?
Me: me and aaron might go out with some girls.
Mom: oh, is it the girl you always webcam with?
Me: (think for a few seconds) yeah.
Mom: Oh, do you like her?
Me: Umm, yes. I'm planning to ask her out on valentines, along with aaron and his girl that he likes.
Mom: oh, well... (gives me this long lecture about how i can have a girlfriend and date, but that if i do i better watch my grades and stuff and like not just focus everything on her and stuff and shits like that)
Me: (then i tell her how i know all these things and that i'll still be able to do my homework and have my other social life like hang out with other friends and stuff and how i'm grown up and how this is the 21st century and how things are different)

Then she talks to me about how i'm gonna ask her and all and shit.
I didn't feel like telling her we're already going out so i guess, i'm sorta lying.
A half lie, hehee. And yeah, i think that's all. Mmmm.
Pretty sure. She approves it, as long as i keep my grades up and not like get obssessed over belle. Mhmm, yeup i guess i'm good.
Time to do my homework >.<

Feel Better Belle (:

i feel like i haven't seen you in months even though it's only been one day.
i miss you (:

GG.

GG harvey. GG daniel. GG SCOTT. LOL.
Err, wasn't such a bad first day of second semester. Same old classes, same old teachers, same old classmates, annnnd my belleee s2(:
Mm, after school we went to get some McDs with harvey and brian and then went to five canyons to play bball. daniel, scott, and reinier met up. then we played 3 on 3.
Me Harvey Reinier vs Brian Daniel Scott.
they wont first game, 13 - 8
we "suposedly" won second game, 21-16
Iono, it was fun. Next time i aint wearing my skater shoes and my gg shirt :P




I can't take my mind off you, but it's okay cause I don't want to (:

Hey loooove (:

Hehe, what a day. Finished my finals, pretty easy. I had Adv. Topic Math and English. Then got a ride to Hacienda and met up with the my hoe and... her other hoes. We finally decided to watch uh, I think it was called BridesWar or some shit. I don't know, didn't really pay attention hehe ;D
Lol it was funny cause, I was being a dumbass and told everyone to sit in a different place, and i ended up being the last one to choose a seat hehee. ILOVEYOUBELLEE! and your babies [=
Mmm, then yeah. Someone was there and saw us and i was scared that she was gonna rip my gochu off. Luckily i still have my gochu xD


Hehe, happyhappy :]

I'm. A. Good. Kid.

Spent time with my loove.
Then went to Chinatown to chillax and eat some phoo. OH SHIT I JUST REMEMBERED I HAD A VIETNAMESE SANDWICH IN MY BACKPACK LOL. i think it's squished >.<

but yeah, went to dinner for grandpa's birthday, then went home.
got spammed by like 1293173972 people about getting the ShortAnswer Questions to the APES final. How considerate of me to copy the questions down for everyone else. I'm, so thoughtful xD
But yeah, I don't know. I feel great. Going to go shower.


s2s2

Even Happier.

OKAY, now I've never been so happy before :D

s2s2

finally...

got that weight off my shoulder.

s2

Haven't been so happy in a while =]

i'll think about it.

OneRepublic - Stop and Stare

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
[ OneRepublic Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see...

Bros...

before hoes... ?

I'm a badddd kid.

Dude, I don't know how many times I've skipped 8th period, but I feel like I've skipped more than any of my friends has. What a dumbass. I don't know, I don't feel like going to class no more. It's so boring and pointless, but that's Spanish class only. So I don't know, I still have an A or B. Good enough hehee.

So what the fuck. What's with Juniors going for Sophmores? Hmm, maybe cause there aint no more Junior girls for us? Haha. I don't know. I'm lost with my self. I find it hard to decide what kind of girls I like. It just, happens :P

Err yeah..

it's "next week" already. Lifted today, it was alright. Sweaty as hell, and the baseball team was there too. Didn't really start working out till like 4:30. It was alright, nothing really. I like it though, it's something for me to do than sit at home and do nothing. But then when i get home, I don't feel like doing anything and I just want to sleep. Right now I'm trying to do my US History essay and study for my Chapter 5 test tomorrow, but it's not working out. Just got my intro paragraph done, took me like 20 minutes. I sat there for 10 minutes just staring at the screen, don't know what the hell is going on. I kind of don't want to go run tomorrow, but I kind of do. But I don't want to go cause I don't want to feel like not doing anything. How lame. I'll figure out tomorrow :P

finals :O

IM TIRED.

GODDAMN. I need to get back in shape. After these 2 days with Brian and Jon, I'm tired foo. My legs an thighs are tightening up. BUT IT HURTS SO GOOD. Lol. Think I'll just take a break and do it again next week. It's cool, at least I'm getting some exercise now :D

Aw crap...

I think I have homework. I think so? I don't know, I'm not doing it.
I have no desire to stay up for the next 4 hours trying to cram all my homework in.
I'm sorry, I fail.

Goddamn...

what a night. Don't think that's ever going to happen again for a while.