live hard or die trying

2011-02-09T21:14:00.000-08:00

damn. school has started. it's crazy. i go to school everyday except wednesdays from 9:30 in the morning till 5:00 at night. i get home and i eat and do homework and i don't have time for anything else. and when i do spend my time doing other things, i run out of time for homework and then i'm screwed. holy shit. well, at least i'm enjoying physics. valentines is next week, and we're planning on going on a date this saturday. our plan is to go to the beach for a picnic. hope it works out well, we both know i have a bad habit of disappointing people. i'm sorry, i try my best. i'm just not the best or most perfect boy friend out there. i try my best.

2010-12-23T04:01:00.000-08:00

i miss you.
i know i'm confusing and i sort of don't make sense.
but i thought about it. and i think this is what i'm down to.
i don't think i can handle being in a relationship and taking on the responsibilities.
i want to be able to do whatever i want whenever i want.
cause it's hard to care and sacrifice for the one you love without not being able to do whatever i want, whenever i want.
i don't think, or feel, that right now is the time for that, for me.
and i don't want to just make you wait, and wait and wait. and then when i feel it's right and come back for you. i feel like that's just screwed up. i want you to just go and have fun and not really sit there and wait for me. i don't know. this is hard.

2010-12-17T22:15:00.001-08:00

remember how we used to call each other when one of us were sick? well, not all the time. usually i just go to sleep, but i offer you to listen to me sleep. well, i've been sick since last friday and i'm dying. i cough so hard my throat, my stomach, and my head hurts. i wanted to call you this week, but i wasn't sure if it was a good idea or not. so i didn't. and now it's winter break, and i have five weeks. i wonder what you're going to be doing. whatever it is, i hope you won't be sitting at home watching tv all day. cause that's what i'm going to do, except i'm going to be playing my xbox which is much more productive.

2010-12-07T22:53:00.000-08:00

I can't keep thinking about you. But I just don't feel like being in a relationship right now. I feel like it's not the right time. It's just a feeling. I don't know if everyone gets a "feeling" sometimes, but i do. And right now I feel like it's not the time for me to be in a relationship. Just not now. I'm sorry.

I know you want to be friends. But not right now either. I think we need more time. I'm not sure how much time. I don't want to make a guess or an approximate. I just don't. I'm sorry. But I promise we'll be friends and we'll be talking again. Just not right now.

I think about you everyday still. I've thought about not talking to each other for a long time. And then we start talking again, after things have changed and we've become different people. Even if we're not different things will be different. I imagine it to be exciting and welcoming. This isn't to get mine or your hopes up. It's just what I've been thinking. Maybe after a while, when I'm ready to have a relationship again, we'll get back together and all of heaven is going to flow into our lives. I don't want you to keep thinking this, but it was just something I've been thinking about I had to let it out. For now, I just want you to try to have fun and enjoy what you have. Your friends. Your family. Your education. Your time. Don't let our relationship put you down so much. I know it's hard, and it's hard for me too. But try, please, just try.

2010-12-04T19:39:00.001-08:00

i know it's hard for you.
it's hard for me too.
i know you think about me a lot.
i think about you too.
i know everything you see reminds me of you.
everything i see makes me stop and think about you.
i know you just want to be with me.
i want to be with you too.
but it's not that easy.
i want to make the person i want to be with happy.
and i'm not fulfilling that.
you're sad. i'm sad. you're confused. i'm confused.
you cry. i cry.
please just give us some time.
you say that "we'll never be friends again".
don't say never cause there's no forever.
there's only "till the day i die".

2010-12-01T23:09:00.001-08:00

time to learn how to be a better person, fuck you andy lin.

2010-11-27T16:51:00.000-08:00

why is this so hard...

2010-09-13T18:16:00.001-07:00

I'm sorry.

2010-08-07T23:11:00.001-07:00

fuck. my. life.

2010-07-03T11:32:00.001-07:00

So far, so good. Ah like summah. Too bad it's so fucking short :'(

2010-06-12T20:20:00.000-07:00

School's almost over, and that also means I'm going to say buhbye to a lot of my friends. And that also means I'm going to a place where there's 10x the competition. The fuck. Life is so hard.

2010-05-16T01:05:00.000-07:00

think of it this way, life is a countdown to your death. interesting eh?

2010-05-06T15:27:00.000-07:00

2010-05-05T20:57:00.000-07:00

what a long ass fucking hectic day.

2010-04-24T10:49:00.001-07:00

i wish it could work out.
i wish we can make it work out.
i wish i was able to make it work out.
i don't want to let go.

2010-04-17T16:28:00.001-07:00

it's getting worse.

2010-04-11T23:29:00.001-07:00

Aw man, I have eating problems. No more junk food or I'm going to have to face the consequences, again. Laaaaame. Doctor told me to go vegetarian for awhile, not considering that :P

2010-04-09T03:26:00.001-07:00

I fucked up, even a "sorry" can't save me this time...

2010-04-08T13:19:00.001-07:00

Hehe that was fun :D

2010-03-14T23:16:00.001-07:00

i miss you grandma...

2010-03-14T16:59:00.000-07:00

I guess that was a good birthday :3

2010-03-13T10:07:00.001-08:00

Being 18 is hard, I'm so tired.

2010-03-04T22:07:00.001-08:00

People are assholes. Always stubborn and think they're always right. I guess they don't mind dying thinking everything they've done in life was the right thing. Assholes.

2010-02-15T22:33:00.001-08:00

Yea, great weekend.
Happy Valentines and Chinese New Years again love(:

2010-02-03T18:37:00.001-08:00

i'm really confused right now.

2010-02-02T18:02:00.001-08:00

i didn't think we'd end it this soon...

2010-01-22T15:27:00.001-08:00

Staying in love with someone you really love even if you know it's best to let them go is like standing under the rain. It feels good but you now it's not right.

2009-12-28T11:03:00.000-08:00

i'm confused.

2009-12-16T14:51:00.000-08:00

this is hard.

2009-11-30T19:10:00.000-08:00

I'm trying to talk things out, but you don't even want to talk to me.
You can't always be right, can't you just listen to me, or at least take a minute or two, or maybe a day or two to think about things and think more broad?
I love you and I just don't want you to be like this forever.

2009-11-27T12:47:00.001-08:00

Hehe, crazy night. Now it's time to go to sleep with my babybear s2(:

2009-11-12T15:31:00.000-08:00

i dont know, what to do...

...but think about you.

2009-11-03T15:55:00.000-08:00

respect man, respect.

2009-11-01T01:13:00.001-07:00

iloveyou baby(:

2009-10-20T23:13:00.001-07:00

I can't even last a day without fucking up, I don't deserve you and you don't deserve this.

2009-10-19T15:51:00.000-07:00

I wish I knew what to do, I'm hopeless.

2009-10-18T01:23:00.001-07:00

Heh, we won. Time to sleep(:

2009-10-15T22:04:00.001-07:00

Sooo tiredd :X

2009-10-08T18:39:00.000-07:00

I really wish I did something right.

2009-10-06T15:39:00.001-07:00

iloveyou.

2009-10-02T18:07:00.000-07:00

I haven't done anything right.

2009-10-01T18:51:00.000-07:00

I wish I just died right now, so I'll seem like I never existed.

2009-10-01T18:04:00.000-07:00

I can't do everything.

2009-09-29T19:35:00.000-07:00

I"m happy today, again :]

2009-09-28T22:22:00.001-07:00

i'm happy right now :]

2009-09-28T15:40:00.001-07:00

i can do it.

2009-09-21T22:02:00.001-07:00

I'm tired.

2009-09-16T22:53:00.000-07:00

fml. fuck my parents. i hate life.

2009-09-12T10:24:00.001-07:00

i do love you.

2009-09-09T19:10:00.001-07:00

Heh, it's been a week of school, almost 2 weeks.
I guess senior year won't be as bad, it's pretty easy this year.
I just gotta keep working and not slack off.
ICANDOIT.
Still coughing, it's getting better.
Hope I'll get well soon, it sucks being sick.

And I'm sorry, I didn't keep my promise. I messed up and I know I can't fix it, but it won't happen again, I promise. I'll do anything to make it up to ya, even treating you to sushi house.

2009-09-01T20:28:00.000-07:00

Fucking shit. I really, really, wish I can just put most of my time onto school and concentrate on education, cause after these next years, if I do well and get a good job, I'm set for the rest of my life. But I don't want to fucking miss out on all the fun things, I just really don't want to. I fucking hate life. FUCK A FUCKING DUCK. I had everything planned out before fucking white ass piece of trash Mr. Fuck a Duck Bush decided to fuck up the economy. I had my shit planned out, but noo he had to stick his white ass dick in my plans and fuck things up. Fuck a shit hole.

2009-09-01T16:49:00.000-07:00

First day of senior year, so far so good.

2009-08-30T19:38:00.000-07:00

One more day left.
Fuck a duck.

2009-08-29T09:27:00.001-07:00

The shit...it's hella hot.

2009-08-24T10:52:00.001-07:00

I'm sooo sorry, I fucked up. It's my fault.

2009-08-18T16:40:00.000-07:00

I'm back baby.
And I'm still sweating ballsack over here :X

2009-08-02T09:34:00.001-07:00

Time to fly biatch.

2009-08-02T01:36:00.000-07:00

im gonna miss you love :(

2009-07-30T21:30:00.000-07:00

I don't know what to do anymore, I always screw up and make things worse. I just, don't know what to do. Maybe I'll just shut the fuck up.

2009-07-26T21:03:00.001-07:00

Today was my first time dying my mom's hair, and I ruined her jeans :3

2009-07-26T00:34:00.000-07:00

One more week left :[

01.20.09

2009-07-20T23:02:00.000-07:00

s2(:

2009-07-17T08:17:00.000-07:00

Heheh, today I took my day off [=

2009-07-15T21:33:00.000-07:00

I feel great :]

2009-07-13T20:41:00.000-07:00

I'm trying, I really am. I just, never do the right thing. And I hate it.

2009-07-11T19:16:00.001-07:00

I'm fucking up -____-"

2009-07-06T23:04:00.001-07:00

I'm tired...

2009-07-05T18:55:00.001-07:00

girl, i'll make you fireworks~

2009-06-28T00:41:00.001-07:00

Meh...

2009-06-27T10:44:00.001-07:00

It's hot.

2009-06-23T20:33:00.000-07:00

Missed a week of work out, I'm tired.
I'll start again tomorrow :D

....maybe the day after....

2009-06-21T19:16:00.001-07:00

Tomorrow is the day it starts.

2009-06-20T14:24:00.000-07:00

What a night...

i still never do anything right, fuck me.

2009-06-19T18:41:00.000-07:00

Heh, first week of summer just went by.
I miss you already :[

We should just see each other as much as we can instead of thinking about how it's going to be sad after we see each other and then we don't see each other for like another week or two. I really want to see you, let's go watch a movie.

Well, what to do. Nothing really. I might head back to China after summer school ends, but I don't really want to. I want to spend time with Annabelle and hang out with my friends. I don't know, I probably have to, my grandpa's not feeling so well. Heh. Hopefully I'll come back early and spend a week or two with my friends and then Aaron's birthday. Haha, can't miss that :D

Alright, just got my haircut, after like a month and a half, lol.
I feel funny, haha.

2009-06-17T19:15:00.001-07:00

LALALALALALA :D

2009-06-14T23:00:00.001-07:00

iloveyou annabelle (:

2009-06-10T19:10:00.000-07:00

Holy shit... last day of school.
What a year, brother's graduation tomorrow and senior graduation and then cousin's graduation on Friday. So busy. I don't have time to spend with Annabelle till next week, I'm sad ):

i'm going to miss you alot princess...iloveyou(:

2009-06-08T20:15:00.000-07:00

Finals start tomorrow. Shit. Time to study.

i miss you annabelle ):

2009-06-07T20:21:00.000-07:00

On Friday, I went to 24fitness with Jason, Brian, and Harvey. Stayed there for about 2 hours. Went to Fresh Choice afterwards. I felt great. Too bad I was already feeling sick that day, I would've felt better but NOPE :[
Woke up at 10 yesterday, left at 2 to reinier's. ate. played games. ate some more. went to stanton. watched them play ball. went to the playground and played lava monster... LOL. that was the best shit ever. then got called off by the cops and we had to go home. played some more games. bbq outside at night. went home. talked to belle. slept. work :3

2009-06-05T21:55:00.000-07:00

I. Had. A. Great. Day.

2009-06-01T19:11:00.001-07:00

School is almost over... I don't know if I should be excited or not.

2009-05-31T23:51:00.000-07:00

i can't... think straight.

i can't do my essay when there's so many things going through my mind.

2009-05-31T22:21:00.000-07:00

what is love...without trust.

Blood Drive.

2009-05-27T16:17:00.000-07:00

So, yesterday was the blood drive. I left in the beginning of 4th period and went back to class in the last 30minutes of 7th period. Hahah, what a great waste of time. Hehe. It was so weird when they took the blood out of me, they would put back the plasma with a little cold salt water into me and it felt hella weird cause it was cold and I could feel the liquid going in me. I almost fell asleep cause the bed thing was so comfortable, but then the dude woke me up cause I had to squeeze the ball to like keep the pressure going or some shit. Lol, good experience.

But yeah, I'm tired. Got to do my projects >.<

TRO - Deviation

2009-05-23T02:07:00.000-07:00

Deviation was...alright, lol.
I miss you.
Went to chipotle, get a steak bowl with extra sour cream and cheese and rice.
I missed you there too.
Went to daniel's and watched slumdog and missed you even more after you fell asleep :3

At daniels...
Peter, out of nowhere, brings out a bag of hot cheetos and we're all "what the fuck are you doing? are you opening up a brand new bag of hotcheetoos?!" and peter is all "yeah, im hungry." and we all started cracking up and convinced him not to open it. he goes inside, 2 minutes later, comes out eating cookies he found. peter is a manaic when it comes to food LOL.

goodnight.

2009-05-21T21:52:00.001-07:00

don't know what to do...but to keep missing you.

2009-05-20T19:21:00.001-07:00

confused.

2009-05-19T15:43:00.000-07:00

"Nobody really cares if you’re miserable, so you might as well be happy."

2009-05-18T20:55:00.000-07:00

I miss you.

Three Words.

2009-05-16T19:43:00.000-07:00

NS and Friends.

it's hottt~

It's up.

2009-05-14T20:44:00.000-07:00

DADA Website.
click me ^^

I'm tired.

2009-05-13T22:54:00.001-07:00

Mm, so I started doing my homework at 6.
I haven't got shit done though.

Homework Left: Spanish workbook, US History protest poster, Math project, English paragraphs for The Great Gatsby, APES homework, and DADA website

Meh, I guess I'll be up tonight.
My dad told me to drink soda so I can stay up, I took his advice.

2009-05-13T21:07:00.000-07:00

If you love somebody, set them free. If they return, they were always yours. If they don’t, they never were.

HAHAHAH.

2009-05-12T18:22:00.001-07:00

HAHAHAH MADE MAH DAY ;D

You're a dumbass.

2009-05-11T20:03:00.000-07:00

I'm tired. Fuck. I never do anything right. You're such a dumbass Andy.

=[

2009-05-08T04:15:00.000-07:00

Justkidding. 2 hours of sleep. Need to wake up and shower.

Heh, still be working.

2009-05-08T02:43:00.000-07:00

Man I'm still up, working on my homework.
Fuck Me, 4 hours of sleep.
I'm going to be hella tired tomorrow, heh. Oh well f3.

Day 1 of May.

2009-05-01T15:49:00.001-07:00

It rains. What the fuck. I thought it's suppose to get sunny and warm. But no the sky fucking starts pouring down on us. Yeup, I have three days to put together this shit. I can do it :3

2009-04-30T15:27:00.001-07:00

10PostsforApril :3

2009-04-29T22:15:00.001-07:00

Okay, my boss calls me today and tells me i have to fill in for July too. Now i have to work every Monday - Friday plus Sundays from June - July. FUCK. My summer is going to suck.

im not going to have time to spend with you :(